When everything goes wrong, what are you meant to do? Are you meant to stay and fight? Or are you meant to just sit and cry about it all until it some how all goes away?
Cause right now I’m sat typing to people I don’t even know rather than telling those who are close to me what’s going on. To be completely honest that’s meanly because I don’t know myself what’s going on. I feel so lost, as though I don’t belong as though nothing I do is ever good enough. I feel like everyone I know is cutting me of. As though I’m not wanted those who once said they will be here for me always are no where to be seen.
Its like your lost in another world while everyone else is just carrying on with everything. But out of this all, what hurts the most is the fact that I don’t know if the guy I love will end up hating who I become. What if..? I’m not going in to that question because then I will be on a right typing fest.. (I don’t know either) but I guess what im trying to say is..
I don’t know what I want yet, and I don’t know who I really am. But I guess as things go on I will.. hopefully, for now I’m going back in to the real world..
Xoxo
Leah, c u soon
Xoxo
